Before I Blow Another Set of Candles

On Sunday, November 3, 2013 by with No comments


Tick tock - tick tock – tick tock – tick tick tock - tick tock tick tock….

In less than twenty four hours, I’ll be turning sixteen and I guess it’s time to tick another goal off my bucket list. It’s to finally put up a blog.


I AM BLESSED.

The past few weeks have really been fun. I had these four back-to-back roadtrips with friends. We had damn solid memories. I’ve realized how I love travelling. But who doesn’t, right? I also had the chance to read again. If you’re wondering, I just finished The Catcher in the Rye and The Godfather is up next. I’m actually reading classics, not only because it’s a requirement at school but because I figured out they’re great too. So why not give them a shot? It’s been months since the last time I stuffed my nose in books. I also had the opportunity to visit the place where my little self, used to goof around. I rarely go to that place and before sembreak ends, I’m glad I found time to go back with the fam. I feel blessed to have such.

I AM HAPPY.

The past few months have also been tough on my part. Things weren’t that good. I actually fell for pain. That was actually odd but I know we can never explain completely why we often do. It was difficult to know there’s something wrong but you have no idea what is it. It was hard looking for answers when what I kept on coming up with were questions. I just got into a point where I continued to question things. I kept on asking why things just won’t work, why I had to feel so terrible, why I can’t just feel happy, whys and whys. But at the end of the tunnel, there comes light. It feels good to be able to find myself again. It feels great to know that it wasn’t the end of everything. I feel happy to come out better and stronger.

I AM THANKFUL.

I am thankful and I have a lot of reasons to be; for another awesome year, for having the friends who got my back, for the family who never leaves me behind, for another season of HIMYM, for the great movies I’ve seen, for the books which changed and gradually changing my life, for the doses of inspiration and positivity, for the chances I took, for the certain circumstances which tested my faith, for realizing life will definitely be okay, for having this amazing life… The list goes on and on. I may not be able to finish this if I enumerate them all.

I AM INFINITE.

To sum things up, before I turn sixteen, I want to write myself a letter including the aforementioned stuffs. But I gotta do that privately. There’s nothing much about my age but there is much on the account of my transformation. I feel blessed, happy, thankful and infinite to have you too. You may not know me personally but here you are, starting to. I’ll just share some words before everything else. We all get into our own turning points. What I learned was to keep my faith alive. That’s the greatest weapon we can all have. Our hearts are vast and deep and no one exactly understands yours the way you yourself do. Allow yourself to feel what you wanted to. It’s fine to mope around and unwind a little bit. Just keep in your heart that you are worth the happiness you want yourself to have. I feel infinite because I want to, because I am and because we are.

Let me end this with my favorite part of the song from the spectacular musical RENT.

“Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
Five hundred twenty-five thousand journeys to plan
Five hundred twenty-five thousand six hundred minutes
How do you measure the life of a woman or a man?
In truths that she learned
Or in times that he cried
In bridges he burned
Or the way that she died…”


from Glee Season 5 Episode 3 "The Quarterback"
the tribute episode to the late Cory Monteith aka Finn Hudson